i ran out of close friends. my best friend abandoned me and my other best friend.. well he cant handle being my best friend anymore. i'd talk to Dan, but it's almost 4am and he's sleeping. Bublz should be on, but i called him and he's awol. i could have used him around tonight. could've used anyone.
Nyles told me he loves me. he's tired of the games and he's sorry for being a jerk and he loves me. that's it. he wants to be around me. i didnt get around to asking what he wants relationship-wise. of course i dont really know what to tell him. i mean dont get me wrong, i love Bublz. but i miss having someone that loves me too. and isnt afraid to say so on a regular basis. which is of course what Nyles is offering. just makes me question things is all. and when you have a conversation like the one i just had with Bublz on top of the one i just had with Nyles.. i have to wonder if i'm with the right boy. i dont like that feeling. kind of just makes me want to cry. which i think is what i'm going to do. and if i have any luck, i'll fall asleep before i start bawling.